manysmiles

back!

2007-02-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

hi pple!i'm back from beijing!
actually its been a long time since i'm back, but havent had time to sit down, drink a cup of hot tea, read a good book to nourish the soul and let my mind wander freely...
though i'm not exactly supposed to be blogging, should have been conscientiously reading my notes to prepare for the 4 quizzes next week on 4 consecutive days.
what a scary thought..though the thought still doesnt make me motivated enough to study=p
i should be feeling so ashamed of myself..
from the start ot the sem,my focus has been on the wrong things, it has been on anything and everything but studying..but with the pressure i'm facing, i'd better get started. there's so many things and people to prove to..
beijing has been a historical trip..seen impressive architecture(though it all centres around 9 dragons=p), experienced winter weather conditions, had chance to be roommate with my elder sis, heard interesting stories about the past emperors and their dynasties,ate lots of oily food,made new friends,learn how to take care of my parents, squeeze my way through to fight with those chinese who cut queue everywhere,endured the smelliest toilets=p...and so much more..
love travelling cos i think it allows me to gain new insights, see more of the world outside, and learn to appreciate my home better..i just love the feeling of the plane descending at changi airport where the surroundings just feel so homely..so at ease..though this trip is not exactly one of the most fun trip i had and i couldnt wait to get home bcos of all the inconsiderate pple and toilet trips i had..haha..but it just makes me feel that nothing beats being at home and each trip is really a refreshing experience....shall save more money to go travelling if i can..but not to china in the near future at least though=p
& the one thing i should mention is i climbed the great wall of china!not a big deal to many cos i only climbed up two or three pavilions..but after all its still one of the only architecture that can be seen from the moon!haha..*beams*
will post pictures when i have it..i took a photo in the ge ge's costume..think it looks rather cool, i felt so elegant and princessy..though its a far cry from my nature..haha..
all rights..tt's the summary of my trip..i should be back to my world of books..=)
nights everyone........

happy vday!

2007-02-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

happy vday everyone!!:)
its time to show love!nt just to ur lovers..but to ur family,friends..and anyone who's been a part of your life no matter how small that part may be..
to all my friends,family,pple special,and pple reading this,
i love you.=)
to everyone who have played a part in my life,
i appreciate you and i'm thankful we met.
cos no matter how insignificant u might think it is,
the fact is u have stepped into my life and made a difference:)

& of cos there are special groups of pple who mean so much to me,
my 2i gang i can nv do without,
my rv bball babes,
my rvsc lovely pple,
my jovial sa 03S81,
my ever lively saints bball,
my uni brighten up my school life gang......and so so many pple.....

to my dearest buddy in faraway brisbane,
i miss you!! it feels so empty without my crazy buddy to laugh and cry with,
i want u to know wherever u are, you are missed k?
its a once in a lifetime experience there and u must hang on no matter what k?
rmb like what we said, we are just a phone call away..
i'm always here for you:)

to everyone out there,cherish ur love and hope u will have tt special someone in ur life....:)
be happy:):):)

2007-02-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

why did u even have to do that?

2007-01-15T10:46:00.000+08:00

maybe i could concentrtae on happy thoughts like this..:)

2007-01-15T10:38:00.000+08:00

What's happening to me?i'm metamorphing into someone i don't know at times.
I'll be thinking of the worst kind of scenarios and getting really disheartened easily by the little stuff people do.Instead of changing my outlook on things, i just blame it on my plights.

its time i really think about the happy stuff and stop the harsh reality from biting onto me.

i will face against the odds and adversity.

bring it on!

start school

2007-01-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

its going to be the start of a new semester again!
time for new notes,rushing to school,possibly new environment and friends,
even though much of everything is the same,i still feel a rush of excitement,
like a pri school kid eager to use her new pencil case when school term starts..
one month holiday is short but still enough for me to meet up with friends,
enjoy like there's no tml...watch tv,sleep and eat as and when i like...
commencement of school term brings new hope,new excitement,new stuff to learn...
though less freedom,more commitments,more burning of late night oil..
despite whatever feelings i have of school tml,
it will still happen!
so what i can do now is..
maintain a positive attitude and look forward to school tml!=)
for those who are still online and have school tml,
time to take a rest and gear up for tml!

??

2006-12-17T20:03:00.000+08:00

there are some things i dont understand,
some things i wish to find out..
and some things i wish it didnt exist..
or some things i yearn to have...
but most imptly,i should just lead my life happily...

things to accomplish

2006-12-15T16:39:00.000+08:00

1)Exercise and keep fit!
2) read more newspapers to gain knowledge
3)Pack my room to a clutter free good headstart for the next term
4)go to places i've been wanting to go
5)earn some money
6)show more care and concern and treat pple with more sincerity
7) love and treasure what i have
8)help mummy out with household chores
9)curb my temper!
10)prepare for the festive season:)
11)meet up with my cousins...
12)play with beloved yanyan and cheryl....
13)play more bball and hone my skills..
14) learn something new
15) be confident and resolute

2006-12-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

karaoke with the girls was great..
but too bad no photos to show cos it was too dark.....
taken in the dimly lit karaoke room where we danced ourselves crazy..
though only for a short period of time..
cos over the years.....
age has taken a toll on us...
hahah...
so we enjoyed to our best with the limited amount of stamina we had...
so glad to see everyone!:):) just reminds me of the rv days sometimes.....:):)
seeya soon babes!

vivocity

2006-12-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

rj-the ROCKy road coffee drinker,
song-the Hamburglar-robber of the day..
:):):):):) hahas...

more of their lovey poses..haha..this photo is so blurred bcos its taken from the normal vga front cam of the phone.
&&&&..the reason its not taken from the megapixel cam of my phone is cos..

me and ting wanted a photo together......
but as rj and song..always up to some mischief...
decided to trick us.......
and TOOK THEIR OWN PHOTO INSTEAD!
hahha..
but stillllll.....our meet up was great great great great great...
and like what ah min will say..
my tummy can develop pacs from all that laughing already..
haaha..
which reminds me..
ah min if u see this lets meet up soon k!
and minna and xuanz!!!!

2006-12-15T16:09:00.000+08:00

its two weeks of hols!
i hope results wont come out so soon..
though i'm quite curious yet i dun wanna face the music so soon..
esp if its going to be traumatising..
and today's 15th dec!yippee!!
cos my dearest ann is coming back..
have been spending so much money going out..
flipped though classified but lazy to really ask more about the jobs..
or more of i'm lazy to work my holiday away...
haha..so though going out,sleeping,watching tv is becoming a kind of boring fixed itinery..
cos every group of friends more or less suggested the same few meeting places..
yes u guessed it--vivo
hahah..not trying to grumble or anything k?cos go with diff pple diff feeling..
and it was nice meeting up with all my friends..
but there;s still so many things i think of every hols that is left undone...
like going to night safari,cycling, ice skating...
haha..and there's still so many pple i havent met up with...
all rights..take care pple..just whining here cos i'm feeling bored and bloated......

photos time!

2006-12-08T15:52:00.000+08:00

three happy smiles:):):)
posing for a shot at sentosa while waiting for the rain to stop...

ah min,me and ah ying at vivo on our first night of freedom!
see those big heavy eyebags from late nights of memorising formulas?=p

vivocity again!with thengz,kenneth, zhenmao and rj after our sentosa not so tan-day..haha..notice the difference in the two v's? thengz's is more wavy while zhenmao's is straight..cos its exactly the way vivo is displayed!!see how pro our "posers"are?=p

sentosa! new zealand natural is very yummy..though v ex..
& here's presenting to you..the volleyball champion gang!:)

see how ecstatic we are at vivo?=p=p

2006-12-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

yippee!
its been a week since my one month holiday officially commences...
i dreamt tt my maths scored c and the rest even worst..
so before nightmares really turn into reality..
its time to enjoy,enjoy and enjoy..:):)
time to really fulfil those things i've been wanting to do..
anyone wanna go out have some fun together?
haha..
& i must do something fulfilling by the end of this hols..
even if its just a simple task of clearing up my messed up room..
read some interesting novels..
move my lazy bums..
been resting these two days at home..so when i've gained enough energy and tt little thumb doesnt hurt any more...
its time for more fun..
shopping,night safari and cycling,beaching.....
and to those who are having their driving tests this month or soon..all the best!
to minna, buddy pq, xuanz, and rj in april..all the best ya!=)

30/11/06

2006-11-30T17:40:00.000+08:00

you can do it.you can do it. YOU can do it.
1, no 1/2 day more to freedom.
tomorrow at this time,
my happiness knows no boundaries!
time for intensive exercising,getting back into shape,meeting up with friends and wardrobe updating.
no zone axis, looping,ionic packingfactor, partial differential equations, entropy........
and surfactants...
all of these would end officially tomorrow........
i just cant wait.
:):):):):)

i forgot to smile.

yippee!

2006-11-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

yippee! end of the computing paper..
what a big load off my mind even though it is not my core subject..
and all i need is to clear it..
but even clearing it seems like a big problem!
computing is like a great psychological barrier to me...
i was so nervous before and during the paper today that i nearly tripped in front of so so many people who were preparing to enter the examination hall..
haha..but its kind of amazing to see many familiar faces...
its quite heartwarming to see people i know..
yet it isnt exactly a good thing bcos we know we are all retaking it...
haha..but nonetheless..i wish all of us would pass and clear this subject together!i'll be praying hard...
after such a long period of time, only 2 papers down..
and for the coming weeks...it will be a tough battle......
the hardest subjects to conquer!
we'll do it!
jiayou pple..all together..dont give up!!!!!!!
before long it'll all be over, and we'll look back and hoped during this period of time,we had tried harder......
so before we leave any regrets.......
fight till the last sec!
its always at the last lap that we must sprint the fastest.....:):)

i wont forget.

exams

2006-11-16T16:36:00.000+08:00

exam period again!
time to mug though my heart incessantly thinks about what i can do after exams instead of concentrating on what ought to be done..
so most importantly now i need to stay focus,
concentrate for just a few weeks and its time to play play play real hard..
i can come up with one whole list of things to do already..
though watching tv is not quite one of them
because i've been catching up with a lot of drama serials anyway=) hahah...
and i seriously need to get the whole idea what computing is about...
and jp's food court is quite a turn off now though anything can still be better than can a..hahaha..
all right!
time to get my engine started again...
for all my friends mugging out there..jiayou jiayou and jiayou.........=)

learn to cherish ur life,live for urself.be happy.because happiness solely belongs to u and no one can take it away from you.

lazyyy

2006-10-15T11:54:00.000+08:00

its been so long!
havent updated blog,havent uploaded photos to the com..
sorry linz and my 2i gang..
will take some time to send u all the photos of our gathering k?
haha..i'm so lazy to even use my com now..
which means i havent been dilligently practising my computing..
must get my engine started next week on computing...

exams are around the corner.......
time to buck up!

rest if u must,
but dun u quit..

stay very happy.....
because happiness is the reason for my existence...

starting anew

2006-10-04T15:56:00.000+08:00

somehow it feels like a fresh start, yet somehow it feels like nothing has changed...
have been immersed in school stuff lately,
but still nothing much seems to get done!
somehow i feel a sense of relief,
like there's more space to breathe,
sorry i hurt u..
sorry i gave myself freedom at ur expanse......
but things will get better for both of us..
we'll be happier...
one day when the emotional baggage is left behind,
we might just look back and smile at all the silly stuff..
time will take away ur pain and mine, trust me..
i've been through it enough to know..
as for now,
i love the way life is,
to not have to think so much,
not to have to hold back or restrict,
and just concentrate on what i love doing...

2006-09-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

it all means so little, but mean so much.

2006-09-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

i wish i could be happier..
wish it didnt hurt..
wish i could really put the load off my mind..

wish it was you.

退后

2006-09-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

天空灰得象哭过离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气嗅出我们的距离
一幕最新的结局象呼吸般无法停息
抽屉里发黄的日记榨干了回忆
那笑容是傻气你我的过去
悲伤是真的忘记缺氧过后的爱情
出现的眼泪是多余我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情会一定持续

2006-09-13T19:04:00.000+08:00

7pm, wed.
i should have been dozing off in the lt6 at this time,
but i skipped lecture!
yippee! but mummy and sis was dismayed by this..
lab reports, personal learning journalssss and management with humour projects due next week..
and after finishing chem and computing quizzes,
more to come next week!!!
study hardddddd
to all who are fighting the study battle...
go!go!go!
dinner time..

school life

2006-09-09T12:33:00.000+08:00

its been 5 weeks of sch already!
or maybe like what ah min and i always say,
5 freaking weeks!
hahah..school's pretty much diff from last sem,
cos instead of me and ah ying,
there's a whole 5 of us in mse,
we (me and ah min) often wonder if we're the biggest clique in the lt,
not that if it is of any importance too..
haha..
lab reports-twice as much, but lab lessons reduced too..YIPPEE..i dread labs.
but labs so far hasnt been so bad, to be honest..=)
lectures,not paying as much attention like before,
homework,those unknown dynamics equations tt just have a way of evolving to a suddenly simple equation.strange!!
break times,still some stepping ard of each other's legs and laughing at our own jokes.
miss the rest of the gang too..=)

and weds are the worst day of the week,with computing tut and management with humour till 7.30...and the lecture is super boring..even talking and not paying attention cant relieve our boredom.
but thurs and fri are always nice..
cos thu i can meet buddy and talk,and talk, and taLK...PQ AND I..
haha..more of collin's gossip next next week??
dun worry i wun let u out of anything he mentioned when u're not ard next week..=p
jiayou for ur productions ya, buddy?
we still have an impt task to do-organising class outings.
if not mr peh's gonna say we dun honour our promise..haha
choc bananas??=p and ur fav ERRICC..(think of how ms yeo calls him)

fri 2.30pm is my fav time of the week..

and before i know it,
term break is here and then the exams.......

adolescence

2006-09-09T11:54:00.000+08:00

its amazing how adolescence has changed me..

i used to happily jump up that long flight of steps to take the train,
despite carrying tonnes of tys,
as i didnt want to bustle my way through the crowd.
now,
i would impatiently wait for the flood of people to squeeze my way through to take the escalator.

i used to finish every bit of my homework,
even till the wee hours of the morning,
for fear of reprimand.
now,
i feel sleep is more important to me.

i used to get excited listening to the bells of the ice cream man,
so that i could persuade my mum to allow me to go down to buy.
now,
i only have to take out a couple of coins,
and i could savour my ice cream,
anytime, anywhere.

jeans and t-shirts were my fav outfit,
occasionally a more elaborate top or two would make me feel dressed enough to impress,
now,
i worry about whether my clothes are in the right colour combination,
and whether my bag fits what i wear.

in the past,
i was happy when my parents bought me new stuff.
now,
i derive more satisfaction when i buy stuff with my own money,
then feel guilty about spending.

i used to wish everyone i knew would grow to like me as a person.
now,
i wish i could grow to love everyone,
love both their weaknesses and strengths,
and be less judgemental.

i used to crave for attention people showered on me,
now,
i wish i could silently go unnoticed.

there are so many parts of me changed,and so many parts of me still as before..
growing up is a strange feeling.
something i would nv have thought of or expected,
silently grows in me,
as much as i wish to embrace this process with enthusiasm,
sometimes i just wish times could just be like before..
and as i grow,
i face more dilemmas,
more tough decisions,
& more situations i cant handle.
on the other hand,
i have more freedom,
more right,
and greater accessibility to the things i yearn,

but,
no matter what,
care and support from my loved ones,
see them being safe and sound,
is just everything i could wish for......

supper

2006-09-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

pak in DEEP thoughts

anxiously deciding bw which prata to eat when the waiter came to take his order..
bcos we had politely turned his request to take our order twice,
we had to decide swiftly before he became too frustrated with us.
the best part was,
he didnt get to eat what he ordered too,
because there was no more durian prata for the day!hahaz..

this is supposedly a pic of clifford
talking to the waiter, but i was too slow=p

our "driver"for the day, who safely sent everyone of us home amidst the endless red lights and him rushing back to fetch his parents...& on the way to send pak home, i saw the pandan reservoir again!it was all too beautiful at night..i really couldnt resist keeping my glance fixed at the place and reminscing...
& cliff actually suggested leaving me there and fetching me up the next morn,
see how sweet my friends are..haha..
but he would have seen a frozen me by next morn..

tingz with her "teh-chino"which i had intended to take a photo of w/o her :p

our happy little girl, of cos with her rj beside her, and left me shouting to change place with pak cos i couldnt stand their mushiness behind in the car..

haha..but meetings were always fun teasing one another,

we just nv get bored of that.tingz jealous about me & rj,me saying about her & song and what could be her new fling-- pak, us saying xuanz & cliff, then teasing pak about linz,mingrong and limin..haha..the story nv ends..

we have a complicated love circle.=p

a pity linz was preoccupied with her stuff,& the car was not enough to squeeze xuanz and minna in..but whatever it is, you all know you are missed by us=p

and despite it all, we are friends who braved the storm!

i love u guys for always making my day:)

random thoughts

2006-09-03T11:30:00.000+08:00

lately, i've been asking myself,
what ought to be done,what do i really feel,
should i accept things the way they are,
or do i have the ability to make a difference.
maybe the answer lies in my heart,
but my resolution always waivers.
things have been so that i've really become disheartened.
what may be wrong, may be right.
what should be right,always turns out wrongly.
times when i think of the past,
and feel that whatever the outcome,
i've given in my best.
but when i want to now,
it always falters.
i really feel like escaping,
the one route i would have strongly refused if it was me of the past.
the 1 strong me who was not afraid to make mistakes,
strictly abiding my principles..
but now i really don't know what lies ahead,
dont know what i should do at the cross roads..

me and my loves

2006-08-03T11:50:00.000+08:00

a peek of me and my 2i loves...(not in order of merit)

me and xuanz!at the charity fiesta..where she beautifully delivered the song"bei ai de nu ren"
the star of the day!haha..jiayou xuan!you're the no.1 singer in my heart=)
me and rj..at our badminton session..which was full of laughter..;)
me and minna..hey!we finally have a photo together baby!=p
me and wenyi..who was also my greatest work companion during our stint at GE..=p
me and tingz..my schoolmate for so so many years...:)

if i had, i would also put up photos of my best friend song,linz,clifford, pak...you all mean so much to me!=)

thai trip

2006-08-03T11:09:00.000+08:00

we had all our meals during free time at this restaurant just at the lobby of our hotel.they serve delicious tea.=p=p
elephants!there's bound to be elephant rides in every tourist attraction..
mummy and daddy!we were edging them to hold hands during the trip,but apparently the plan failed.
i told u the tea was nice!see my sis?=p
haha..and thai's very best....transversites!40 baht for each pic with one of them.but i managed to snap all 5 w/o any cost.haha!

my thai trip!
nothing much to blog about except tt i was grumbling about how little scenery there was to see,how my mum kept influencing me on the things i wanna buy...
my mum would go: "this one where got nice?"
me:"argh...who's the one buying?"
my dad:"aiyah , just let her choose herself lah!"
fortunately, i have such an understanding dad=p

and the trip to pattaya on the speedboat wasnt very exciting too,
cos i hate sitting on boats,
and with the boat bobbing up and down so violently,
i gobbled down at least 5 preserved plums..

only interesting to mention is,
i went down INTO THE SEA!
to watch the supposedly beautiful corals..
but the water was a little too cloudy to see anything much..
i was so gripped with fear before i went down..
but no..
before i could resist,
the thai pple had already stuffed the oxygen tank over my head,
and pushed me into the water..
haha..but at least,
it left me with no time to be frightened and sobbing,
and i'm thankful of the experience i had!=)

baking day

2006-07-20T10:30:00.000+08:00

yest was a major baking cheesecake day!

first..me,ting and xuan made this..lemon cheesecake...
then, i made this cake..orginal baked cheesecake...
don't be daunted by its appearance;p
it tastes rather like a cheesecake..=p hahaaa..

xuan,ting and i were so hungry after baking cheesecake we ended up cooking maggi and omelettes with ham and cheese...
it felt so heartwaming like we were staying together alone in tt big house...
but as we started quarrelling over the diff methods to wash the plates..
we decided we'd better not be room mates...hahaha...
minna..we miss u too!join us again another time k?=p

24th june

2006-07-20T10:27:00.000+08:00

finally!pics of the unclear jj taken at the concert...

2006-07-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning, I put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡但我　不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了你　爱吃的东西
这次换我等你被咖啡　的香味叫醒

想要找回每天早晨　对我微笑著的你
还能够　做些什麼代替我的歉意
总是望著我　小心翼翼顺著我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然　让你精疲力尽

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麼不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Ooh—Babe---

You fought your way through the rush hour
Try to make it home just for me
月光下静静靠著彼此　只求夜长一点
有多久没有好好看你　只是认定了我
无论在什麼时候回头　都有你的笑容

是我忽略了你也会有　想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最後一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待　不要真的弃权

是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心裏唯一的superwoman没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成　灰烬

the one

2006-07-15T12:34:00.000+08:00

at times like that..
i'll suddenly feel i'm gradually losing myself...
losing the urge to do many things..
losing the passion in the stuff i love..
losing my enthusiasm..

times like this,
i'll be selfish..
i'll disregard the fact that there are many much more unfortunate people out there..
and i should be contented with my lot...

but just such times,
drains me of my energy..
there seems like a burning sensation in me to move myself and get something done..
yet i seem to be unable to gather energy to do it..
then i'll blame myself for being not proactive enough..

times like tt i'll lose my goal..
think of reasons for my meaning in life..

hmm..

2006-07-15T00:02:00.000+08:00

how sweet......

cakes

2006-07-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

maybe one day i can bake a cake like this..
*paiseh ah min,use ur bday cake as the image=p

baking disaster

2006-07-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

walnut chocolate cookies-how desirably tempting it sounds..
bought the mixture without second thoughts..
wanted to make a whole big success out of it,
but turned out to be a major flop..
oh no no no..
the base was badly burnt, but the cookie was still too soft and moist..
and this has never happened before...
BUT despite three failed attempts of putting the dough into the oven to no avail...
i wont give up..
shall try making some brownies,cheesecakes,cakes...
when i'm richer=)
and most importantly!
the START FROM SCRATCH mango pudding tt eunice's mum always make
tt are so deliciously yummy...
and with her secret receipe on my hand...
heh heh heh...
its cooking time..

But on second thoughts,
i think i'm better in fixing oriental home cooked meals..
like stir fry chicken in cashew nut, tomato paste tofu...
its been so long since i've cooked!
i must get that magic touch back...
and reign the kitchen...
hahaha..

ikea!

2006-07-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

we finally met up,buddy!
after such a long long time..
despite our endless promises to meet up more frequently each hols..
haha..i always dunnoe why it seems so hard to meet up..
and though its for such a short period of time..
i still love it so muchhhh...
haha..my buddy's such a fun person to be with..
even hearing her adventures of the missing maid is so funny..
and how about the maid who started sharpening her knife in the middle of the night?
haha..we walked around in ikea..looking at so so many things,
i feel like refurbishing my room and giving it a new look with a theme..
but judging from how broke i am now,
this major project will still take some time..
the lamps are so so nice..i wish i could bring them home..
i nearly bought one home..when pq reminded me it will cost a hefty $3o over dollars..
doesnt sound too cheap for someone who's not earning much..
and the posters were so nice we wished we could afforD!
those black and white pictures of people,children,cars..
colourful pictures of vintage cars,tranquil scenery...
and our fav-the black and white picture of a busy new york street lookalike..
how very nice..would give my room a tastefully new look...
but in the end..poor us decided to take some photos of the posters instead..
haha..and the one we loved most..was the one we didnt take photos oF!
cos the lighting was too poor..
& the funniest part was..
we were supposed to shop around for weilin and lay theng's long overdue present..
only to find ourselves shopping for our own stuff..
which we eventually did..by buying a heart shape frame for ourselves..=p=p
buddy..we must meet again to shop for their presents someday!
i think we could rant on forever..
and thinking about ikea brings back such fond memories..
the hotdogs and the FINGER PUPPETS!i wonder if chuen boon still loves his queen lay theng...
hahaha...

my bball friends

2006-06-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

at ruth's wedding..

my bball girls..i miss u all so much..and miss playing bball so much too!=)

my eye candy!

2006-06-26T10:46:00.000+08:00

huanhui,ann's friend,ann and YUHAO!
YUHAO YUHAO YUHAO!
lucky he doesnt know about this blog if not i'll be so embarrased..but its yuhao!my eye candy!haha..its been so long but yuhao is still the irreplaceable no.1 eye candy in my heart..haha..
and i miss ann so so much too...

manysmiles

2006-06-21T11:17:00.000+08:00

looking back,
there were times i was crestfallen,
times i went out of love,
times i was betrayed,
times i was backstabbed,
times i fell and didnt know how to stand up,
times i was so disappointed with myself,
times i didnt know how to face others,

times,times,times i could go on endlessly about my disappointment,frustration,regret,hurt..
times i could blame the whole world for everything that happened...

but many other times,
i saw love,
i saw fun,
i saw happiness,
i saw health,
i saw the care and concern pple showered,
i saw how pple couldnt do the things tt i took for granted...

"rest if u must,but dun u quit"

i told myself to stand up,
to be braver,
to smile,
to forgive and forget,
in a world that everything seems to go wrong,
there will always be a ray of sunlight,
a ray of hope,
and tomorrow..
will really be a better day.

in life's hectic and monotonous schedule..
learn how to cherish the small things in life..
there may be many things i've errred,
but i'll learn to be a better person...

exercising day

2006-06-20T17:16:00.000+08:00

19th june 2006- exercise day

its been a long long long time..
since i exercised..
and like for nearly the whole afternoon..
i feel so good about my body now..like its so toned and fit..
but on the other hAnd, with my teeth aching and my muscles cramping throughout the body.
i feel like an old man....

but it was really really fun...
playing bball with ah min,ah ying,fafa,belvin,qinwei
+ yingyu,gillian and her bf who joined us later...
and enthusiastic and sporty pple we felt yest..
we even went running and played a little of badminton..
like how fun!
i wish we could play like tt without worries for many more times to come...
before the school starts and stress begins.....

extraction

2006-06-20T17:10:00.000+08:00

extraction of teeth=pain!

its been ages since i last visited the dentist for tooth extraction..
the last time i prob just gave my shaky little teeth a little push,
and off it came!

but having nicer teeth really comes with a heavy price!
i'm at stage one only..but the extraction of teeth really made me kinda uncomfortable..
i feel myself swallowing big gulps of saliva mixed with blood..
and whatever i eat..
if i eat on the right it will come out from the holes of my mouth..

haha..when i was at the dentist and he extracted my teeth i felt so excited and amused...
like its been ages and i didnt feel any pain except numbness..
which i thought was rather cool...
but when the numbness started to wear off..
and there are two big gaps in my mouth,
it doesnt seem so funny anymore=p

and i'm going to go for round 2 of extraction on fri..
then braces on next tue!
when 27 june comes..
its hELLO to the metal mouth!=)

smiles..

2006-06-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

i just love them

me & pretty tingz..

yj, me, ah min & heng wei...

straighter teeth!

2006-06-09T17:33:00.000+08:00

i'm going to make my braces soon!
i know i have been procrastinating about it since sec sch days..
but i've never firmly made a decision
cos pple around tell me its ok
and i convince myself its ok..
haha..but now i just cant wait to see my teeth all straight..
spare me the details about the ulcers i'll have..
excruciating pain i'll go through..
agony during consumption..
& most of all..the money i'll have to pay!
this is prob the worst part cos i feel bad making my parents pay..
maybe when i earn more i'll try to pay them back...

but for now...
i'm just excited about my straighter teeth!=)=)=)

open ur eyes

2006-06-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

Open your eyes just say goodbye
我这个夜晚应该哭个痛快相遇不算太晚
相爱不算太短现在正好适合离开
Open your eyes just say goodbye
只是不懂为什麽还笑得出来承诺已经不再
叹息无可计算再不离开眼泪就要泛滥

每一种决定都像肝肠寸断每一种选择都是心有不甘
过了今晚你要开始学着勇敢不可知的未来
你要自己承担每一种决定都像肝肠寸断
每一种选择都是心有不甘诚实并不代表容许背叛
这样的爱只是错误的示范

forgive

2006-06-01T23:04:00.001+08:00

for all the hurt and harm..
forgive my sins...

forgive

2006-06-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

for all the hurt and harm..
forgive my sins...

love

2006-05-31T18:13:00.000+08:00

love-
is a feeling,
a form of strength,
a reason for existence,
a dictator of moods...

To my bestest buddy- Lee Pei Qi

2006-05-29T15:05:00.000+08:00

To my bestest buddy- Lee Pei Qi
This one's for you buddy..
i'm so sorry you even had to remind me of the surprise..
i'm sorry i didnt mention it in my blog..
but all i wanna say is..
i may not say it out..
but such things are always kept in my heart & i deeply appreciate the surprise you've planned for me..
everything you've done despite the turnout..
but nevertheless..i was more than happy..
i dont need the whole of 03S81..
you,me,tze yuen and lay theng,weilin..
was more than enough to make me feel so elated..
i'm glad for your sweet gesture of planning a surprise for me!
and happy to see them turning up..=p
i mean it!
& i've never forgotten about all the memories we once shared..
even as times pass by..
as we grow old..
i'd rmb all those times i pushed u to some stranger..
u pushing my hand to touch some stranger's butt..
we always match making other pple...
reading sam sengs in class..
talk about bock kiat and mr ho..=p
dreading labs and the napfa tests..
buddy power during pe..
scared of ms yeo calling our names during maths lessons..
having to take part in telematches and soccer tournaments..
taking free samples in supermarkets..
the pains u took to celebrate my bday..
baking ur ever yummy choc cakes..
and the book u made for me..(it has become my source of joy when i reminsce about our jc days)
how we'd ask silly qns to each other..
how we'd skip lessons & drink teh tarik and scald our tongues..
how we'd end school early & head to ikea and bengawan solo to eat our fav kuehs and hotdogs..
how we'd get all excited planning other pple'd bday..
like brainstorming a finger puppet show for chuen boon..
how we would have combined pw meetings..
how we would idolise marcus..(& u fighting with the twins 4 his affection=p) haha..
how we would tease about dale..& his chip...
& the list goes on..
some things i nv say..
but all these are deeply etched in my heart..
once a saint..
always a saint..
once a buddy..always yours...=)

Rosie Dunne

2006-05-29T14:52:00.000+08:00

I've finally read finish my story book-Rosie Dunne!
thanks so much buddy..for recommending such a good book..
its about 2 people who are best pals since childhood..
who went through many ups and downs together..
who understood each other best..
and who were there for each other despite having their each other half at diff points of their lives..
and fate playing a big joke on them..
making them miss great opportunities to get together...

but now tt i finished this book..i am experiencing withdrawal symptoms..
wishing i had read the book a little more slowly so i have something to look forward to read..
and anticipate what the ending would be like...=p

nevertheless..really enjoyed the book and in case ting,ah min and minna they all read my blog..
i shall not tell u whether the ending is a good or bad one..
up to u all to find out k?=p

and june is coming..
cant wait for my two best friends wenyi and xuanz to return from their trip..
hope they are having fun now!

i wanna go on a trip too!!

"It was him.Finally it was him.The man who had written the final letter she had read that morning,begging her for an answer.."- to be continued..

2006-05-19T11:47:00.000+08:00

my 1 happy clique!=)

we were on an acting cute mood...

& back to normal....

my fighting gang!pepsi cola, anyone?

though i didnt say much..but i really love my bday cakE!=)

k box!

2006-05-19T11:33:00.000+08:00

think ah ying is engrossed in singing?
wait till u see me and shumin...

me and my bday cake! with courtesy of ah min and her hard work..
THANK YOU THANK YOU!=p

dun ask me why i started dancing...haha..

may holidays

2006-05-17T21:40:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i've blogged..
so many things have occurred..
have been going out with all my friends and enjoying all the times i've spent...
its really been a fruitful holiday..
haha..cos i've been playing every moment..
thanks for everyone who wished me happy birthday..
and for all the presents...
thank u so much..
my life's a happier one with so many true friends beside me..=)
and my family of course..
and my dad who sent me such a touching message..
i'll nv forget..

.......

2006-05-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

my mind's in a mess..
there seems to be so many things to be done..
yet nothing much to do..
there are like so many problems i wanna resolve..
but i dunnoe how..
even bdays that were the most anticipated...
dun seem exciting anymore...
very happy at one moment..
yet regret at another.....

ok but at least..
obtaining the license finally made me day=)

maybe i just need more sleep....
and get back my holiday mood...

may holidays...

2006-05-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

its may!
my fav month of the year..
with all the holidays.and a really long one.....
the best thing about uni is tt when its hols..
its really hols!!!
no tys to complete,no worries about holiday homeworks..
no remedials...
yipee yayee yuppie!
i'm a happy girl=)
till the day i fully recover...
i'm going to rest well..
recharge and then play till i drop!
while everyone's busily brainstorming the things they wanna do this hols......
i'm thinking just as hard too..
but the medicine is make me so slpy i cant think hard enough..
but first thing first..
i wanna pass my driving test!
who cares if i dun have a car to drive around?
i want my licence!!
haha..then when i get well i must fight it all out with ah min,fafa and ah heng..
i'll be back.
we'll play more of pepsi colas!
and dear..
we must go to the beach someday...
there's just so many things to do.....
and i wanna play bball!!!!
though i cant pronounce it out loudly now..
haha..but i cant wait to play!!
even if all the balls i shoot are air balls..
even if i get out of breath after running for 1 min.
i just wanna play.........

operation day

2006-05-04T10:52:00.000+08:00

yest i finally removed tt bubble on my mouth~!
i didnt know a careless gesture on my part when i accidentally bit my lips..
could lead to me having to undergo a minor op to remove it!
and the stitches in my mouth looked so scary..
i dont even dare to laugh out loud
and my pronounciation is blurred a little..
i was so amazed with the effect of anesthetic..
what a little needle could do to make my mouth feel totally numb..
all i could feel was the doctor and nurse tugging at my lips
and i was so nervous when i heard the doc say."stitch"
but of course..
i didnt feel anything..
the nurses were all very nice..
they looked so patient,warm and with a big heart..
esp the one at the op theatre...
she must have been trying to make me less anxious
cos she kept talking to me before the doctor operated on me..
haha...i think i was quite bad cos i gave her only a few word response..
not tt i was too nervous or uninterested..
just tt i didnt know what else to add on..
and nvm that i was wrapped all over..
they even gave me a shoe cover to wrap my feet!
haha..aint they suppose to operate on my mouth??
and the best part was..
daddy called me "zhu ba jie"the moment he saw me...
great!what a loving dad i have..=p
hahah...but i'm just very happy they were accompanying me
though this is not any big deal op..
like my sis who came home purposely to accompany me..
and thaNKs xuan..
for even bothering to remember and msg me=)
i cant imagine how u must have felt when u did your major op tt day..
i'm so sorry i laughed at ur swollen face then..
hahaha..its ok i'll let u laugh at my sausage lips someday..
all rights..enough of my reminsce of the day...
time for some soft breakfast......
i feel like a baby at home now..
even when i wanted to wash my slippers due to the endless pepsi colas and sand war..
my mum offered to wash for me.....
so maybe i feel a little discomfort now..
but at the very least...
i feel so pampered.=p

if you're not the one...

2006-04-23T09:55:00.000+08:00

If you're not the one,
then why does my soul feel glad today?
if you're not the one,
then why does my hand fit yours this way?
if you are not mine,
then why does your heart return my call?
if you are not mine,
will i have the strength to stand at all?

i never know what the future brings,
but i know you're here with me now..
we'll make it through
and i hope you are the one i share my life with..

i dont wanna run away but i cant take it..
i dont understand..
if i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am?
is there any way that i can stay in your arms??

if i dont need you then why am i crying on my bed?
if i dont need u then why does your name resound in my head?
if you're not for me
then why does this distance maim my life?
if you're not for me
then why do i dream of u as my wife?

i dunnoe why you're so far away
but i know that this much is true,
we'll make it through and i hope you are the one i share my life with
and i wish that you could be the one i die with.......
and i'm praying you're the one i build my home with
i hope i love u all my life............

cos i miss you
body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
and i breathe u..
into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today..
cos i love you..
whether its wrong or right.
and though i cant be with you tonight..
you know my heart is by your side...........

2006-04-20T11:19:00.000+08:00

guess how heavy is the bride?=p

at long las!my sis's a pretty and happy bride...

& my 1 happy family...

my sis's BIG day with my SMALL little niece who refuses to smile...=) but still as cute..

hang in there...

2006-04-20T11:07:00.000+08:00

hang on..
just three more weeks.....
dun give up till the last min.............

tagged..

2006-04-13T12:10:00.000+08:00

haha..ok i was suppose to do this a long long long time ago..
but was too lazy to do it..
here it goes!

4 things/people that make me smile:
1) seeing everyone i love..
2)thinking of those funny memories..
3)playing with my darling niece
4)eat,sleep,run and watch tv!

*4 ways to win my heart:
1) be a gentleman-be responsible,mature and thoughtful
2)know how to make me laugh!!
3)to love my weaknesses and strong points..
4)communicate,trust and understand me!& make me feel a strong sense of security around him..

*4 things I believe:
1) tt everyone has a destined special someone..
2)live each day happily!
3)love and happiness is all around..learn to cherish..
4)everyone's rich in a way..count ur blessings..

*4 things I am afraid of:
1)all the creepy crawlies..
2) the dark..and ghosts...woo...
3)losing my loved ones..
4)as for now..not doing well in exams!

*4 things/people I wanna see right now:
1) the beach
2) the stars
3)changi airport
4)my fabulous exam grades!=p=p=p

*4 people who should also do this:
eh everyone's having exams so i'll leave this to another time!=p

sunday

2006-04-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

3 days more to exams!
& less than a month away to e end of this sem,
end of this academic year..
ah min and fafa really reminded me e fact tt
we might not be in e same course anymore..
& it really saddens me to even think about it..
ive become so accustomed to them
its like they've become my core subjects in ntu..
nvm about phy,computing,maths or whatsoever..
& i so wanna study the same course as them!
regardless of whether its mae or mse..
& like what ah min said..
who cares about repeated loops or multiple integrals
if we can all go through this together..
& we can go settlers cafe laugh till we drop..
buy a sponge cake/muffin & act like its for e bday boy/girl
then call each other da bian/da bian zhi/lao sai or whatever..
keep acting and exaggerating what each other said..
gaze at stars and shout to the sky!
oh man..
so from now on..
i'll cherish even more the times we spent..

for song

2006-04-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

congrats boy!for finding ur happiness..i'm happy for u!=)
esp tt all ur efforts paid off..=)
anyway..take care in ns!you have all my warmest wishes!

when the going gets tough

2006-04-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

work hard..work hard..work doubly hard..
there's no time to procrastinate..
no time to think what went wrong..
no time to feel unhappy..
hang on..
when the going gets tough..
the tough gets going~!
i dont know how much energy and motivation i have to carry on..
but one thing for sure..
i dont want to regret when i receive my results slip!
and i know i can make a difference if i start now..
at least start doing something..
rj said i cant move the mountain all at one time..
but i can imagine its made up of small stones..
and move it slowly..
though its kind of a funny analogy..
but i appreciate the idea nevertheless..
thanks!=)
leave the worries to tml..
bye bye phy quiz..
time to say hello to exams..
it'll all be over soon, right?
time to pack my beach gear and look forward to star gazing!

2006-04-02T19:14:00.000+08:00

officially there's only one week three days more to the start of the exams.....
& motivation still hasnt struck on me..
maybe i should just think of my aim in life..
my bridal shop??=p=p
and i havent been studying fast enough..
8 chapters of phy for quiz tml..
now at 3..
& i still wanna watch the campus superstar later!
oh man..
haha..

sometimes i really dislike myself for not being proactive enough..
like granny's staying at my house now..
she always look so bored and lonely..
but due to my inability to communicate with her in teochew,
(except some broken hokkien tt comes out of my mouth occasionally)
i always retreat to my room..
i wish i could make it a happier stay for her..
but i just dunoe how..
except to help her to her room sometimes..
switch on the lights for her..
smile at her everytime..
but still most of the time i'm just not talking to her...
& i wonder what i can say when i dunnoe how to speak proper dialect..
maybe its time to learn.........

2006-04-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

the reason why ntu life sparkles my life...=)

# destressing part 1

2006-03-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

yest was such a fun filled day..
yes though it was our studying day..
initially i was too lazy to write it all out..
till i saw ah min's blog..
i just had so many things to say..
yes i guess fafa has become our jie-mei.=)
or we've become his xiong di..haha..
i wonder is he enjoying our company,
or just tolerating with our nonsense..
but as far as i know..
min min and i are enjoying it like what..=P=P=p
it just makes me so looking forward to studying..
and it helps us to destress so much..
after a long and intensive day..
& after me complaining and grumbling about sch work..
and me asking them repeatedly if they would like to take a break
despite our slow progress..
we finally went out to gaze at the star-unfilled sky..
but the sight was just too beautiful to behold..
i felt like at the top of the world!
though there was some invisible mosquitoes tt seemed to be around me and ah min strangely..
(maybe the mosquito was a male one so he didnt like fafa)
but e disturbance aside..i just loved standing there and quietly look down..
and i cant wait to do it again..TML!
ntu looks beautiful at night....
just so lovely..
no wonder they say uni is the best time of ur life..
i'm starting to think so..

yup tingz..yes i enjoyed ur company for studying too!haha..dun worry i'll bombard u with chem qns..

the last lap..

2006-03-27T17:13:00.000+08:00

like what san reminded me..
about what mr tan said..
that instantly lifted my spirits..

"we must put in the most effort for the last lap.."
though he meant it on running 2.4...
but i just felt so encouraged by the thought of it....

enough of my procrastination already.....

work harder!=)=) thx san..ur words made my day...

stresss

2006-03-27T16:45:00.000+08:00

i'm so stressed..
there's so much i dont know..
like today's chem test..
even though i thought some of my ans should be correct..
but when i compared with the chem wizard ah min mine's is totally wrong!
hmm..i just feel so sian when i study and study and still dun get anything right...
how will i ever be able to do well????
i wont be able to prove to my family tt i can score good grades too..
so lost this sem when there;s really nothing i'm good in..
esp during chem and computing..
and more so when i see yj and ah min discussing all the chem concepts..
and i know totally nothing tt i'm so stress..
i dunnoe i should listen to them or what..
of cos i'm not saying their selfish or anything..
they're my best companions in uni..
and they would gladly explain everything patiently to me if i asked...
but......
i dunnoe..
i just dunnoe how to start studying everything.......
i just feel so lost when i have totally no idea in anything!

blogginggggg...

2006-03-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

hmm..just felt like scribbling something after buddy reminded me tt i havent updated it for a long time//i'm just too lazy...
and it reminds me how much i miss jc days when i talk to buddy peiqi...
and jc days are so fun!lessons were always interesting cos we just had something to laugh at..
though when i look back i should have cherished my time more..
laugh less and study hard..work hard to get into the team..cherished my opportunities...
but nevertheless..i just felt that jc days were so fun and i could just laugh my head off everyday...
fortunately..
uni days are also this fun-filled!
though sometimes it gets boring durinng tuts..stressed at periods with quizzes..tiring with projects on hand..
but my uni friends are just really what keeps me going..
i could just study study and start laughing when i get reminded of somethign tt happens in school..
like how me shumin and yj always laugh at silly things..laugh at each other..trick each other..
and how tt shumin and yj ran for their lives so tt i couldnt go to the toilet with them..
if only i had a camera i would capture that moment so i could have a good laugh every now and then..
but for now..
its so deeply rooted in my mind..
haha..and everytime we do those silly stuff..fafa is always around to see our embarrassing moments..i think we must be the most embarrasing group of girl friends he has known..=p=p
and fafa,wei wei and weewee are so talking like us now...
i'm awed by our influence even..
but when u have one group of friends of the same freq as u..
life just gets so great..
even studying seems fun with them..
i cant imagine how much i enjoyed studying at the tut room with them tt i didnt want to leave school even at 9 plus...
i cant wait for the hols..
but till then..
study hard!

star gazing...

2006-03-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

i wish i could...
leave the worries for tomorrow..
lay on the beach and treat like its my own world..
with the sand below my feet..
and the night breeze gently carressing me..
and a wonderful night view to behold...
and the stars would be my best company...
i love gazing at the stars..
reminds me of the star filled sky i've seen..
simply breathtaking and at that very instance..
i couldnt do anything but stare at the stars for a long long time.........

chocs..

2006-03-19T15:10:00.000+08:00

tobelerone's are yummy..

:):):)

2006-03-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

keeping a wide grin everyday keeps me going..
maybe there are undone assignments..
homework to catch up with..
exams to worry about..
incessant grumbles and nags to cope with..
but there's been so many things that really makes my day despite hectic schedules and busy workloads..
like my uni friends..who makes coping with uni life seem much less tougher than it is..
like those tv programmes that really makes me much more destressed..
like my comfy bed which makes me just so happy to be home..
like those nice songs i sing along to which just gives me a chance to be more hopeful..a little more dreamy..
like my mama,papa,sisters who nag but care so much for me..i know it deeply in my heart k..
like food which just gives me more energy to carry on!
like my best,forever,always supportive group of friends..my 2i pple..who just makes me smile thinking about them..
and of cos my dear for always encouraging me..making those small antics to make me laugh straight from the heart..=)
but then..it would be better..if i could..
take a long walk down the beach when all the exams are over and i could heave a huge sigh of relief..
go shopping and shopping till my legs go jelly soft..
gorge on that sakae buffet..and meet up with all my friends.
happy bday my dearest wenyi!=) i'll meet up with ya soon..and my bball pple..sa and rv alike..
my buddies..pq and ty..
my lovable 03S81..
my long missed ann who's overseas with kat,junz,siqi..
and pass that dreadful driving test!
see my pri school friends whom i havent talked to for so long..
and so so many many more..
i wanna go k..go kite flying..go ice skating..go bowling..go watch movie..go settlers!
haha..i'm not trying to write a long list of thank u speech to all these pple..
but just..
learning to be grateful to everything i have...
and..thinking about the stuff i wanna do..
just makes me a little more hopeful for 2nd may..
and gives me the strength to carry on...
jiayou everyone..=) =)
keep on smiling!!!!

12.3.06

2006-03-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

my sis's wedding is coming so soon.....
the long awaited day..
but i have so many mixed feelings..
happy for her cos she's beginning a new phase of life..
and i wish she could give me a niece or nephew of two to play with..=p
but that would at least be a year's time...
but sad that i will get to see lesser of her..
and have one lesser person to grumble to..get excited with..
maybe i should get my luggage bag and move with her to her new house..
hmm..

2006-02-24T12:14:00.000+08:00

this hols is coming to an end!there's like still so many things that i havent done..work wise or play wise..its like the fastest hols i've had..after this sem i'm really going to have a huge sigh of relief..but again..that is if i did reasonably ok this sem..and what with computing and chem and the always dreaded phy and maths..i'm so worried..but i can only take things one step at a time if not i'm going to go crazy any moment.......

can''t wait for sis's wedding...though 'i really cant bear to see her even lesser than now..its like a huge part of my life going to her own new phase of life...but still..i wish her all the best.......i guess i'll have a sleepless night on the eve of her wedding..
i'm so going to cry...
haha..

it just keeps stacking up..

2006-02-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

there are tons and tons of work
piling and piling up..
if my exams were about who has the most work left undone..
i might just be one of the top few..
haha..but fortunately..
there's going to be a one week break..
though its rather short for me..
but its must better than nothing..
time for me to take a little breather and catch up with some work maybe?
and i just saw ms han today!
didnt know she just gave birth to a son!
she looked absolutely the same as before..
i mean she didnt even grow fat or anything after her pregnancy..
and her son looks so cute and chubby!=)
and ruth with her little noah...seems like its a good year with many newborns..=p
and the nkf health check i went today..
everything was fine with me!
i thought what with all the food i ate and no exercise
my body fat mass ratio would have ballooned..
surprisingly it was still acceptable..
but i had grown 1 cm SHORTER!
there must be some errors with the measuring equipment...
and it feels so happy and lively..
to see my family starting to get more involved in sis's wedding preparations...
i just cant wait for this joyous event..
what's more i'm going to be her emcee...
haha..its such a personal challenge to me..
all rights..
gtg to dreamland..

work harder,harder and harder

2006-02-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

the days just go by..
and my resolution to study seems to grow weaker..
and before i know it the exams are here..
and i'm going to regret again..
no...
and i even skipped effective com today!
maybe now..
i should just switch this off and start working hard..

CNY mood and my fabulous tv serials

2006-01-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

its going to be new year soon!
honestly since young i didnt really enjoy new years..
i felt it was just a chance for the elders to gather
and it was so boring and we had to entertain all the qns they asked..
and like how many times they wonder i'm xiao min or xiao yun..

but now as i gradually age,i really feel the happy atmosphere..
and i can get to see my little niece!!!how great..
most imptly..can have a good rest before school begins again..

and i have been lacking behind in how many tutorials and lectures..
but i promise i will buck up..after the cny k?=)

and the tv serials i've been watching every day..
are ending or have just ended..i'm so sad!
hope they broadcast nicer shows..
it might just motivate me to work harder!hahah..

cant wait for my match on fri..
hope i still have some energy to catch up with the juniors..
hahha..

long time no see..

2006-01-24T13:29:00.000+08:00

hey!
its been so long since i've updated this..haha..for pple who blog constantly..i really take my hat off to you guys..i'm so lazy to keep myself going at this..
haha..but times when i blog i really enjoy myself too cos i get to say whatever i feel like saying and think that there's pple listening to me..haha..and it makes me happier..
and to update those who havent seen me for a long time..i failed my driving!i got like 36 points...at first i was quite nervous but confident when the test started cos i've been doing my practices impeccably on the day itself..but i still couldnt those legs of mine from trembling when the test began..it was a long wait during the time we did the balloting to choose the test route and waiting for the tester to pick us from the room..but anyway i still didnt perfom well enough to pass..oh man..but whatever it is..its great to take a little break from hectic driving lessons and do some of the things i enjoy more..=p
and i'm going to start teaching tuition!i really wonder if i could cope..or more specifically,whether i can give up some of my tv cum slping time....i'm such a pig i wonder if i'm up to this extra responsibility..havent told my parents but i wonder if i should..they would just comment on how lazy i am and shouldnt be ruining the poor tutee's future..haha..but really thought it is a good experience..and can earn some extra bucks..and if like what daddy promised..i could be heading to japan during may and watch the sakura!oh my god..if it really comes true..i'll be so thrilled..so..better to save some money first..hahah..
school has started for three weeks already without realisation..and even after three long weeks i still feel like school has just begun and i dont have to stress over studying hard..besides i'm so in the new year festive mood!haha..and sometimes i really miss ah min when we have so many lessons without her..if she were here we could be teasing her about her ugliness etc..haha..but her pineapple tarts tasted pro..(wah its the 1st time i praised her so u can imagine they were really not bad)
and rj..if u see this..happy birthday!sorry couldnt turn up for ur bday dinner..but i know u would say its ok cos it wouldnt make a difference without me..haha..but still happy birthday k!i'll get ur present soon..feel free to tell me if u want anything..as long as its within my means..dun tell me u want song wee k?he's mine!!!! he's such a cute little boy unlike his bro..hahahha..song!i wanna go ur house soon!!!!
and the highlight this week....i'm going to sa to see the new school and most imptly my bball darlings!!!i just cant imagine how cool a school we are...this even rhymes..haha..mr tan said we have an electronic score board!oh man..haha..and cant wait to shed those extra pounds..eu and san!lets go jogging on tt day..but not too fast k?i'm old already...miss ya guys so so much!=p
and like every new year..my new year resolution is........
to be happier each day!!!and tt goes the same to all my friends too!

You are tagged!

2006-01-10T15:10:00.000+08:00

haha..i dunnoe is this some chain letter thing or what..haha..but guess its fun to continue doing this.i;m supposed to write 5 random/weird stuff about myself and pass it on leaving a msg on those i mention to tell them "you are tagged!" something like tt and the whole thing continues..=p
since xuan sent me this guess i cant mention her name back..haha.

5 things about myself:
1) i like to smile at myself when i look into the mirror.
2) i was nearly the spelling bee but i lost to this younger boy cos i didnt know how to spell "street" and he got to spell"road".tt lucky chap.he ended up with over a thousand dollars.and me being runner up,got $0. =X
3) as i'm typing this my legs are wide open.just like how a girl shouldnt behave.
4) i love all my loves...
5) i spoke utter nonsense to my toddler niece..hoping tt she would understand cos i didnt know what she was saying.maybe if i communicated with her in some weird lang she would understand.so i went.."ah ne ah no wa chi bon ah gu lah?"(something like tt) but i think it sounded more like korean.hahahh

pple i wanna tag:
1)dear
2)song
3)tingz
4)rj
5)sandra

taurus women..

2006-01-10T14:51:00.000+08:00

A slim and moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person. Square facial bone structure,high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Tauruswomen, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line.
She is a constantly changing person. If she up sets, shewill not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets reallymad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her.
She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved youbefore. She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there. She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit.
Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks of money as an instrument forassuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in finecloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance, then you are dating the wrong girl.
You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home.She loves animals and likes to surround by animals. Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She hasher own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship withher, if you allow her freedom.
Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality.
She is a public figure but belongs to no one. She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limit her freedom.She always stands out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poorfarmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party.
If you are a politician who is looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds.She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else.
If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more. Even when she is dating you, she is also able to be fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you lose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that "We'rebetter off breaking up".She always remembers her first love.
Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every thing should be done for "Happiness".She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before heraction. If she thinks of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge.
She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough. She has herown style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress likeshe comes from Mars. She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else.She likes to learn about your dreams and thought.
She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she didsomething wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up.
If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to like her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.

hmm..i guess its only 50% true........of me..

2006...

2006-01-06T17:37:00.000+08:00

1st week of school!a brand new year..how amazing the new year just creeps in and everything starts anew..
my first week of school was a busy one..trying to change all my timetable to be same as ah min they all..hoping that we'll get our elective..driving..printing notes..owing pple money for the notes=p haha..but some part of me just feels strange to the new change..i reach home everyday..lie on my comfy bed and sleep for 2 hours..watch tv from 7 to 10 then 11 to 12.30..
part of me wish i didnt have to start work so soon but part of me knows this is inevitable..but no matter what i should be forward looking cos a positive outlook brings hope!and i definitely wish this could be a great year ahead..=)
have been watching the last breakthrough..its a hong kong drama serial about doctors who go the extra mile to help patients and those pple from africa..my mum used to lecture me for being picky about my food when pple in africa didnt have anything to eat..i used to just brush it off with saying some rubbish..but how this show showed me the cruel reality..and those pple are all bones i could nv imagine..maybe i would really learn to be more appreciative..at least wth the food i have..and stop grumbling about canteen a's boring food?=p but this show really made me think twice about the life i'm leading now..not that i'm discontented..but that it seems likei havent done anything purposely..i believe the effect of the show will leave me before i know it..and still i havent gotten anything meaningful done..but it really makes me feel i could try to help others in their daily lives in more way..and that should start from little things..i hope i could be more resolute and take my words into action.....=p
but nevertheless..first and foremost resolution..get my driving license..i cant wait to end driving lessons....=p

BOX ME!

2005-12-27T10:53:00.000+08:00

i'm so stupid.
i dont even treasure chances!
without realisation,
the dateline to change course is over on the 24th!
though i know my chances of getting in are very small..
but the most stupid thing is i didnt even try!!!!
i'm so angry with myself...
why didnt i just take note of the date and prepare the 100 word reason..
i could have just tried..
BOX ME!!!!!

pls drop down my chimney!or my window =p

2005-12-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

tt statement above was my wish this christmas for santa claus.
hahha..this christmas i spent was a really special one..
24.12.05-xmas eve:
-went orchard shopped around and looked for clothes..tried on so many clothes but ended up empty handed cos i needed time to consolidate the stuff i wanted to buy with a tight budget..
-a small little unhappiness happened bw me and dear..but he gave in and made me smile..though tt tear of mine just refused to stay in my eyes.thanks and sorry dear..for causing this pout of unhappiness..
-continued our xmas eve shopping to suntec..where it was still as crowded..walked around for nice food to eat..and we were thinking we didnt mind spending a little more on xmas eve..but! how wrong we were..we were in no position to choose!everywhere was flooding with pple and we felt like can packed sardines..eventually we settled for marche..surprisingly there was 2 seats right for us..so we didnt have to wait long..and there was a min $15 spending quota and guess what's the most amazing thing.........our bill was $30.not a cent more or less..even the cashier was astonished!see how budget we were?=p
-shopped around carrefour and decided to go to conrad hotel to join 2nd sis for stayover..played uno and indian poker and luck just didnt seem to be on our side!and my self assumed uno queen sis..just kept losing..and ah ze bro was busily hicupping away..u could just imagine what a hilarious sight it was..=) and as silly as i could be..i keep forgetting to say uno when i held my last 2 cards..and the most amazing thing was..instead of saying uno..i shouted "catch"!!!i must have been too nervous cos dear and ah ze ge kept catching me for not saying uno.see?what a huge impact u guys made on my nervous system?haha..
-spent a wonderful night at conrad with the picturesque scenery and accompaniment of loved ones.=)=)=)
25.12.05
-went for lunch at boon lay raja with my family to celebrate dad's birthday..to our surprise..many families were celebrating their family's members bday too..and many tables were singing the happy birthday song..and of cos..we sang a bday song to our beloved daddy too..haha..but instead of a bday cake like everyone else..we bought a xmas logcake!(courtesy of 2nd sis) the manager couldnt help laughing when we asked him to take a photo for us..with the logcake..
-and the day continued with me going to dear's house and giving his sisters and bros their xmas present on dear's behalf..he kept insisting the gifts were from me...to make me the good person..=p his two sisters were thrilled at hearing they had presents..but not so thrilled when they saw the skirts..but nevertheless..i thought the clothes looked pretty cool on them..they'll love it someday!=p
and for the santa who nv came.......i'll be waiting for u next year!!!!!!!!

too excited for words.....

2005-12-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh!!
i really don't know what better words to express my gratefulness,excitement and how immensely touched i am....
except than to say....
YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YUPPIEEEEEEEEEEE...
thanks dear! for buying tt zen microphoto for me..u really didnt have to!
i know it burnt a big hole in ur pocket and u had to forgo buying many other things u like cos of me...i'm so so sorry..and so so touched and thankful...=)
i know things cannot be measured by the monetary value...
but for a man who's willing to spend the money to even buy it..
what can i say?=p
thanks for always being so generous to spend money on me yet scrimp and save for yourself....

my driving adventures(misadventures)

2005-12-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

ok this is bad.
i'm dreading driving more and more.
though its absolutely hundred percent fault of mine,
but i just dread it!
every lesson i would get lashed at harshly,
because of the same mistakes i commit.
& they include like not turning the car even when the green arrow is shining obviously in my face,
not shifting the gear down even though i've decreased my speed already..
& the list just goes on and on..
oh no..
my instructor even said today i'm dead..(ok he didnt exactly say tt but more of less of it=p)
with so many things to concentrate on hand yet i just can't focus..
just tell me how.
& the worse thing is my engine dies on me all the time..
cos i always nv step on the accelerator hard enough.
today i went to the circuit,
thinking it would be like some road safety park and i get to drive a real car,
and rekindle some of the childhood memories..
like how cool lah!
haha..but it was totally opp,
oh boy..
i wonder when i'm ever going to get my licence at this rate.
bless me!

impresario 2006

2005-12-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

16.12.05
i had the experience of a lifetime!=p i stepped into a recording studio for my auditions!
haha..though it was no big deal cos it was only the 1st round and anyone could participate..
but i've never thought it would be like what we see in mtvs..putting on the earpiece and then singing into this mike,
where you could only hear yourself and the blasting music in the background..
that barely 3 mins experience would be here to remain in my mind for a long time..=p
even if i didnt make it through..i'm still glad i tried..
though i didnt practise much and my voice and body was trembling with fear in the room..
it was nevertheless something new i've experienced..
and i would nv have made it if tingz and xuanz havent been encouraging me along..
all those practises together..=p all the gao xiao things tt distracted us=p
and of cos my dear who took the taxi hurriedly to come and support me..
and my friends who came!!like boing,wenyi,monaq,cindy and lihui...thanks thanks..
sorry for stinking ur car monaq!=p i'll rmb to buy anti perspirant deodorant k?haha..

reconstruction works in progress>>>

2005-12-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

finally!a diary tt looks so much like the kind i want..=)
thanks tingz..for ur help so late in the night..
though there's still much more to be done..
like i'm not even sure how to include the tagboard after many failed attempts..
will try to get it done so..
so tingz..prepare to teach me k?=p
i'm so excited over this thing..though an i.t idiot like me takes ages to attach a little link etc..
maybe this is good practice for computing next sem..haha..just MAYBE..
i'm even beginning to feel a little sense of achievement..
though there's nothing exact to boast of=p
hahaz..i'd better go slp before dear knocks me hard on the head..
be prepared to see more things in this blog!

welcome! =) =) =)

2005-12-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

hey!its my 3rd time starting an online diary..=)
this prob won't last long again before school work starts to keep piling..
and i cast everything on my mind aside..
including this diary=p
but on the spur of the moment..
just wanted to get this done..
seems like i've been doing things today at the sudden urge of it..
like mahjong today with tingz and linz(song and minna should have been part of us too=))
but spontaneity brings excitement!!i must have been too bored...=pP